I just realized that I'm going to have a baby!

I had a Dr. appointment the other day and as I was leaving the Dr. said after our next visit I'll be seeing you every 2 weeks. What?!

People are always asking me If we have picked out a name? If we have the baby stuff set up? Am I getting excited? In my mind I am giving them a look like they are crazy because I have a ton of time before this baby comes. Those word from the Dr. really sparked something in my head and I am freaking out just a little.

I went through Madeline's baby stuff to see what I can use. It's a good thing that babies don't care about what they look like. The only boy thing I have is a little outfit I never sent to my friend who had a baby 2 years ago. I have some yellow stuff. Yellow stuff is OK I think.

I don't know if it is my pregnancy brain loss or all the junk in our lives that won't let us come up for air, but I have not put much thought into the fact that we are going to have another child. In my mind this has always been Madeline's baby. I have loved watching her excitement but I am going to be the mommy not her. I halfway ask myself am I ready for this? It is a little late to be asking that question so why even finish the thought. Ready or not!! I can't believe that I am almost 30 weeks into my pregnancy and it is just becoming a reality to me.

I will worry and stress and probably cry for a while. But I have faith that Gods blessing are given to us when it is right and when we need them, and he will provide a way for us. I pray for the strength that I need and will need in the near future. I also pray that the baby is not born on the weekend of the 18th while Jared is in Florida. Let's all pray for that.